Monday, September 24, 2012

Fear

For you to say, "I'm not afraid!" I'd respond, "That's a lie."

When you're praying at morning and blessing your food, just hoping to make it by.

I know you're afraid cause I'm scared too.

I'm afraid of you knowing too much, I'm afraid I don't know you.

I don't think we've met yet, Hi how's your day?

I see you in the halls but never know what to say.

You could call it fear, it's not normal to be kind.

So I always walk by, I hope you don't mind.

I'm afraid to be the same, I make my own choice.

I'm afraid I'm judged by my appearance more than my voice.

I'm afraid of smart people and the questions they ask.

I'm afraid of my coaches and possibly failing their task.

They can say I did well, but how well is good enough.

I'm afraid they pity me, I promise I'm tough.

I'm afraid of confrontation and negative relation.

I'm afraid of divorce, I'm afraid of death, and permanent seperation.

I'm afraid of falling asleep after hearing rumors come through.

I'm afraid of waking up and finding them all true.

I'm not afraid of sticks and stones, but breaking bones is scary.

I'm afraid I'll attend BYU and at 19 be ready to marry.

I mean you're only 19, you're only a child.

You're finally in college, you're free!! Go crazy, get wild!

I'm afraid of school, I'm afraid every day.

I'm afraid of those faceless strangers and the things they may say.

Are they talking about me, do they know what I've done?

I promise that was once, it was only just for fun.

These fears I've confessed, they aren't near enough..

To how much I fear, the truth is too rough.

'Til next time....this is the end of my fearful rhyme.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Humans

I AM NOT A ROBOT.

Today I made a mistake...
I tripped, I fell, I screamed, I yelled. Cause I AM NOT A ROBOT. I am human.
Today I told a lie...
I told my dad I was on time to school, I told my teacher I would follow the rules, I told my bishop I wouldnt wear bikinis to pools. Cause I am human. 
 I do not have buttons, I do not have gears, I do not operate off a clock, although I tend to get ticked off.
I tend to smile even when things hurt. I shed tears when tears are shed for loss. I hurt when the going gets rough. Cause I am human. 
Robots can tick and function eternally. Yet I'll never know when my time is at end.
So till then I plan on making mistakes, I plan on telling lies, I plan on smiling, crying, hurting, laughing, running, eating, sleeping, breathing. Cause I am human. And humans do not function properly.

Love




 Love

I lay in my bed
Slowly resting my head
The feelings so snug
You're love is a drug
I take my last sip
Of milk and cookie dip
And I can still taste your lips
And your breath smelt of chips
I love the small things
Its those that gives me wings
Your like my Redbull
You're the quench to my soul
Although were still young
Love is defined with our tongue
Just as long as you love me
In love we shall be....

Love is what we let it to be.