A chance for trust issues

Read on 7/15/2020

If a man seemed to be honest and sincere, who wanted to make me laugh and succeeded in doing so, if such a man came along who had a respect for other human beings, I would certainly give him my attention, and I would not struggle too hard if he caught me in a web of charm. 

- Dr Maya Angelou

For the "too nice" folk

You are a mindful person. You want the best for others. You want to be the best person you can possibly be.

Because this is your vision, you naively trust that others have the best intentions, as well. Give folks the benefit of the doubt and when they show you who they are BELIEVE them, the FIRST time!

You want to be free. Physically, financially, mentally & spiritually. Do not allow any individual or substance that would prevent you of your freedoms.

I really could have been myself and lead a life from my love and truth from the beginning. But I needed to go through heartbreaking experiences with people I genuinely loved so I could learn and feel the gravity of what I was allowing. It did not serve me, more importantly, it does not serve my loved ones when I don't speak and act on my truth. I am worthy and what I have to share has value. I will move forward today with my confidence in that.

There's certain things you can't talk about with other people and that's subjects they can't personally relate with. If they haven't gone through it they cannot speak to it. Don't let someone convince you otherwise.

A minority's view of the red, white, and blue

In 1996, Fiji faced a threat from a military coup against the newly elected government, consequently making my parents decide to leave Fiji. They packed up 5 of us kids at the time and left with the hopes that we would receive a better education and future, believing the best chance of that was in America.

Since then, my dad has taught me freedom is defined and attained in multiple ways. Whether its freedom from war, justice for equal or moral freedom, or education that sets us free; there are freedoms that Americans can practice that other countries simply cannot. Freedoms that would not be available to me in Fiji because of my gender and mixed race or available here if I wasn't a dual citizen. Freedoms that Americans, even foreign civilians, have given or sacrificed their lives for. Freedom has never been free.

Im grateful for my dad for showing me resilience and opening my eyes to a perspective more considerate and conscious of the people and places around me. For encouraging me to take full advantage of my freedom and never stop fighting for it. To use the privileges I have to help others that may not. And appreciate the people you meet along the way seeking the same dreams.

You have ALWAYS been worthy - COVID-19 2020

Truthfully, I don't know what I'm doing.

I know I have a tendency to share, sometimes over share, with people on what I'm doing or am up to. Especially with things that make me happy. Some things that most people might not understand.

I've lived in different states across the country and like most of us, I've been in some "beautiful" spaces and some "ugly" spaces. I've been in situations where I've been trapped in a space that I don't want to be in and I don't know how or when I'm going to get out. Sometimes we find ourselves trapped for such a long extended period of time that we forget we are worthy and that we have ALWAYS been worthy of things of beauty.

So lately when I feel trapped, or stir crazy, I run to a beautiful scenery to remind myself that I am worthy to stand in beautiful places. I dye my hair purple to remind myself I'm worthy of enjoying my beautiful, sometimes purple, hair. I stretch to remind myself my body is worthy of being loved. I do these things and share them with you because I know you are worthy too.

So today, I'm holding you accountable to put yourself in a beautiful space in where you have control (I understand some are more limited than others); whether its your backyard, your balcony, your book, your makeup, your favorite shirt, or a nice hairdo. Do it to remind yourself of your beautiful worth. <3

BLACKOUT

A leader
Who dishes out tough love
Is a lovable leader

Possible Memory

Well weve reached that point where high school students decide whether they want their sport to be their life or a good memory.
Personally, I can't imagine stopping. The time I've put in, the money my dads spent, and the love I've gained for the sport. For now, I plan on fighting to spend more time for the game, earn a scholarship, and gain more memories. Till then;

Here's to all the kick-offs, goals, assists, shootouts, overtimes, livin on the road, the smell of wet grass, early mornings, breakaways, crossbar shots, countless hours of practice, Nike cleats, thousands of dollars, shin guards, hard switches, loud chanting, new equipment, sniping shots, corner kicks, coaches, passion in our numbers, living with your team mates, and gaining a second family. The pick ups, fights, the let down miracles. Soccer is my passion, my future, my game.

#yolo

I remember

I remember red slides. I remember crust less pb&j's. I remember when you'd have to go to your friends house to 'play' rather than text your friends to 'hang'. I remember wearing the same clothes everyday and not thinking twice about it. I remember Ramen Noodles being my main meal. I remember climbing trees. I remember when thinking weak people wear shoes. I remember night games. I remember supersmash bros on the Nintendo 64. I remember being proud I could eat more slices of pizza then the boys. I remember when my dads shirts were dresses on me. I remember when I kissed my dad goodnight, every night. I remember when I stopped. I remember when stake dances were a big deal. I remember when sports were for fun. I remember when it was easy to forgive. I remember when it was easy to forget.